Like most compulsive overeaters I have wanted to be anything but one. Why couldn't I be like everybody else and just eat food to stay alive?
Well, slowly I am seeing that in being a compulsive overeater I have a way of measuring the pressure I am feeling in the world. For some reason, I am not always able to know how I am feeling. I am unable to articulate or identify what the niggling feeling is - I will regularly ask myself is this what anger or fear feels like? Is this what happiness is or is that boredom?
I often don't know the answer to these questions - but if I have a food plan, if I am aware of what I am eating I will see. Even if I haven't been asking any questions about feelings, extra food will show me something is there, something I need to reflect on, share with someone else or take it to my HP. Food is my barometer for my feelings, and for that I am grateful.
Hi. I somehow bumped onto this specific blog and I just have to tell you how much of what you have said resonates inside of me. I totally relate to what you said about having a food barometer and I have used that idea SEVERAL times to stop myself from turning to food and actually looking into my self to see what was really going on. So, for what it is worth... THANK YOU. Truly.
ReplyDeleteThank you, in being honest about my feelings I get to learn how to handle my feelings. I've spent so much of my life trying to be anybody but who I was, feel anything other than what I was feeling and it left me emotionally bankrupt. I no longer want to live like that. Please keep sharing your feelings and together, with help, we can arrest our compulsive overeating.
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