Step One is where I get to admit I am powerless over
food and that my life is unamanageable.
Today, I celebrate the freedom my powerlessness
gives me and the blessings of being an over-eater.
In knowing and identifying my disease, I can surrender
and hand it all over to my HP to take care of.
I know I am powerless over food because:
I have a physical reaction to food I am allergic to, espeically sugar, sugar and flour and sugar alternatives such as palm sugar. These reactions include:- Being unable to stop after the first bite; portion; plateful
- Migraines
- Severe sinus
- Eczema
- Acne
- Excessive and rapid mood swings
- Depression
- Physical cravings
- Excess weight
- I can not limit my food intake by dieting
- I can not eat moderately or sanely outside of meals - snacking always leads to compulsive overeating. I can only eat manageably within the structure of abstinence
- My relationship to my food is beyond physical - it is a crutch spiritually and emotionally
- I physically react to 'sugar-free' foods as if they were sugar products. My body can not tell the difference between artificial sweetners and sugar, and therefore has the same physical reaction
- I am often secretive about my eating, not wanting others to see me eat, see what I am eating or share what I am eating
- I am often unable to eat slowly
- I often have poor judgment around portion/ meal size.
- My first reaction to a plateful of food is often 'it's not enough' and I become fearful that I will be hungry. I often finish eating my meal and my first thought is I am hungry, that wasn't enough
- I have significant fear of being hungry
- I will eat food even when I am not hungry. I will eat food I don't like. If I do not like a meal, I feel grief that I didn't get the meal I wanted
- I am constantly watching what others are eating, aware of their portions and food types
- I experience jealously at what other's can eat
- I can be a 'feeder' offering sweets and cooking treats for others
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