First of all, we had to quit playing God

I have just been searching the Big Book for answers.  And as usual I found the bit I needed, or more truthly the section needed jumped out at me (thank you HP).

Bad news is now I need to take the Big Book's advice.  I need to stop playing my HPs role, something I find hard to do.  I am so used to taking back my self-will I barely notice it slipping back into my handbag, I quickly take the focus off me and spend all my time telling everybody else how they should live their life.  Selfish and self-centredness becomes my mode of operation and I don't see that it is happening. Well, not until 'driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity, we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate.'  When I see hurt and shocked faces all around, it's impossible to not see my bad
behaviour.

I was shocked at how angrily I spoke to someone today.  I thought I knew best.  I thought I was being hard-done by because people weren't acting the way I thought they should. I felt disrespected and unappreciated, but didn't stop to think about what other's needed.  I overstepped the mark, I upset the mood in the office, and I didn't take stock of my behaviour before it was too late.

I am learning it is ok for me to have angry thoughts, but I have no right to inflict them on someone else.  I need to speak to people respectfully and kindly, even when I don't agree with them. I need to make amends, especially living amends.

HP help me to quit playing God.