When did honesty become such a problem for me? Five years ago I would never have described myself as someone with issues with honesty, but today I see how hard I try to avoid the truth at any costs, especially if it is about my own behaviour.
I haven't changed in the five years, it is my understanding of who I am that has changed.
I need to see for myself what isn't working any more, which includes:
- Not asking my HP for help when I feel myself being compulsive around food.
- Taking the first compulsive bite.
- Eating outside my planned meals - not matter what it is. Even fruit. Fruit can only be eaten as part of a meal plan.
- Eating foods with sugar as the third ingredient or above. Sugar is my poison, no matter how small the quantity.
- Isolating, not calling others when I am struggling with the food.
- Not being honest to others about being in the food. Yes I need to share my hope and my strength, but I also need to share my 'true' experience of recovering from my compulsive overeating.
- Missing meetings - it shows every time I skip a meeting
- Forgetting to be grateful - I have so much to be grateful for and as I know an attitude of gratitude makes for a great attitude.
- Cooking for others food that I can not eat - especially when it is done as a substitute for eating that food.
- Commenting on other people's weight
- Judging my body
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