I am irritable and resentful today. I have allowed it to get in the way of enjoying my day and I have struggled to be the person I want to be. I have been angry, judgmental, blaming and disrespectful.
Resentment normally comes when I am in 'control' - not accepting life on life's terms, unable to see other people's point of view. Resentment also comes when I am fearful, often fearful that they are right and I am wrong in my beliefs. It is often only a small irritation, but it is ridiculous. It's being irritated that the world isn't doing exactly what I want. Well who said it had to?
What I forgot to do today was to ask myself 'how important is it?' For all the things I was resentful about today, none of them were incredibly important. It's not important that people think just like me. So, I let my day be ruined by silly, unimportant things - many to do with my ego.
Resentment is a feeling, it doesn’t have to be an action. I don’t need to speak or act on my resentments, but today I struggled not to show them. I want to move away from the cloud that covers me when I wallow in resentment, so I need to name them and then release them.
The only way I know how to free myself from resentment is with a gift from my HP. I can not simply will myself to let the resentment go. Usually I try to do that by rationalising but that often keeps me stuck, as I can tell myself I have good reason to be resentful. Please HP - help me be free of the resentments I've cluched too firmly too today. You will be done.
What I forgot to do today was to ask myself 'how important is it?' For all the things I was resentful about today, none of them were incredibly important. It's not important that people think just like me. So, I let my day be ruined by silly, unimportant things - many to do with my ego.
Resentment is a feeling, it doesn’t have to be an action. I don’t need to speak or act on my resentments, but today I struggled not to show them. I want to move away from the cloud that covers me when I wallow in resentment, so I need to name them and then release them.
The only way I know how to free myself from resentment is with a gift from my HP. I can not simply will myself to let the resentment go. Usually I try to do that by rationalising but that often keeps me stuck, as I can tell myself I have good reason to be resentful. Please HP - help me be free of the resentments I've cluched too firmly too today. You will be done.
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